Bossy Bissy :D

Serapan di pagi hari:D
Pagi ini, sesungguhnya aku gak minat tuk serapan nasi atau lontong atau apalah...
namun tiba2 hasrat itu datang!
aku berpikir dengan segelas susu dipagi hari cukup,eh ternyata karna mood seseorang buat aku harus serapan, karna ia telah menyerap tenaga segelas susu tadi pagi!
Ternyata menghadapi orang yang moody dan gak tau diri cukup menguras tenaga, hingga memaksaku untuk injeksi makanan ke dalam perutku! syukurnya daku tipe orang yang suka makan!hahahahahhaa

Hey, You..!!!!!!!!
Dunia ini bukan milikmu Geng!
Dan kamu gak bisa hidup di dunia ini tanpa orang lain!
so jangan mentang2 kamu sudah berada di top kesuksessanmu kamu berlagak seenak perutmu aja!
Intinya kita2 sama sama mencari nafkah disni!so jangan sesuka hatimu aja mau berbuat dan bersikap apa!
Engkau jg punya keluarga, dan ku harap engkau bisa memposisikan segala sesuatunya terhadap dirimu, agar engkau tau apa rasanya ketika kamu berada di posisi itu!
and Yuuuu...sudah membuat orang jadi serapan pagi karna harus menambahkan energi tuk menghadapi sikapmu yang Moody tak jelas!
Say what you want!!!
we are now a magician yang tau apa yang kamu mau!

Note di pagi hari!
Ketika kamu berada di atas kesuksessan, bersikaplah ramah dan tetap merangkul bawahan,agar mereka mengerti apa yang kamu mau! dan mereka respect kepadamu bukan takut kepadamu yang sehingga membuat mereka blank dan tidak creative!
Ok!

OVER!

^-^ Good morning Universe and bloggers!!!^_^
Today is twenty fifth of August two thousands of twelve!
The day of  free from arranged married!
The day of free from family pressure!
The day of free from a LOSER man!
The day of free from any treats!
The day of free from blank blank blank blank......etc!
What's left? REGRET TO HAVE EXPERIENCE WITH A LOSER!!!:)
This story was started in 2008 when she first graduated her degree!She has experienced in years up to the end of June 2012! It's a long non accomplished  journey to have!
The dispute is END! NEW LIFE has come! She stated'' It's the time to bury the memories, time to shut off the memories, and to count in to a big hole and to close it!
As the symbol of her sincerity, She has given a gift that indicates that she forgives him though he doesn't!
She wishes for his new life as of today will last forever till the end of both of their time! till God takes them away!
She begs from her bottom of heart, sorry for everything happen. maybe this is the way to close this long dispute!
she still hopes that she will get along with them though the past has broken up the relationship!
She regrets to all her families, mom, dad, auntie,uncle,brothers and sisters.
Finally, Good bye arranged married! Welcome my loved married!

The Sincerity of Life!

A Pitiful short drama!
Casts : a small family , a mother(widow), and 2 young doughters!
Line : Being affluent is expected by most people in this universe!
On a beautiful sunny day, there is a small family lives in a remote area! The well-off is hardly to find out there!
There some times benevolent visited and took a look in that area, and they gave an aid to help the poor people stay there!
One day, one of the two daughters,(the younger) went to out of the ground to see and find some foods to feed!she was asked to look for anything that can be eaten by  mother and the sisters! then on the way to reach up the place where foods are usually found is far from home! She was 15 yrs old, a young girl had to survive in the mid of forest for pretending her family's life! she stepped up her feet to move and move, she didn't dare to look around, she just step up, she heard many weird sounds, but she tried to ignore it and she encouraged herself to be brave and she foot up hurriedly. 
Accidentally,  she eared a clash, she didn't notify that her legs was fall onto a cramped hole!*zrekkkk
She grinned''hurt...!'' help...!'' none seem to wake her up! then she tried to hold the branches and occupied it tightly so she could stand up! finally she stood and continued to step up again eventhough her knees both were blooding. She was not worried on it, she just thought that she had to get the foods otherwise, she would be scolded and hit by her mom and sister...!
10 minutes after her prev walk, she eared a raucous sound say'' help me..help me''...the sound was not clearly heard but,  she supposed that it probably was only her imagination!
then she strode again, and the sounds enliven the hush!then she stopped her stride!then saw the surrounding...
a few minutes later, after she looked around she found a part of body near the big tree!
She was totally shocked and stammer. She was totally afraid. Then she was quiet and nerve herself to get closer to that sound! She strolled her foots slowly and silently, and finally she displayed, that there was a young boy was trapped in cramped hole!She stared at the back of the man, she nerved herself to speak up''hello there?what were you doing? are you OK?'' within a faint sound she greeted the man!
suddenly, the surrounding was tranquil...
she encouraged her brave to see the man from the in front, then she surprised to see the a lean boy within a shabby face was tried to ask for help from anyone...he pretended to stay alive...
then she asked, what happened with you?why were you here?
*the man answered weakly''please help me,please help me...he didn't say any other words instead of saying g''help''!  
After she heard it, she was confused and indecisive, and questioned herself?what should I do? *at that time the days went to afternoon!
She whispered to herself '' what if helped this man, I would not be home in allotted time, it cld be late night to get home, then I will be blamed and condemned or even I wld be spell out!'' but in other side'' this man wld be die what if I didn't help him''
she knew well how was the condition of that area, when it's night, the wild animals will roar as loud as popping bomb!and they will prey whatever they found!
*she got more indecisive...
She asked the man, what cn I do for you? then innocently, she storied all her minds above, then she said 'I am sorry I cld not help you now'' then she started to continue her way, but one step to move, the man kept begging, PLEASE HELP...:( she ignored it, she strolled her foots ahead,...*the man was shedding his tears and just kept begging...
after few steps, the girl stuck her foot!
She looked back and no more voice to begging a help! hurriedly, she turned back and run as fast as lion that hunt its prey!....
She found the man was unconsciousness! she felt guilty and said'' Sorry, I  will help you, come wake up, try to go out from this hell hole! after hours struggling to save the man, finally the man was aided!!
OTHER SCENE!
A fortune family is worrying to wait the news of their nice children, named Shane! 
''cring cring cring....there was a call!
a mother is hurriedly took a call and say''hellow..
The police: this is a police officer speaking, may speak to Mrs. Bright?
Mrs bright answered ; Yes I am, then the police officers inform that Shane has been found and he was save! an hospitalized because of his lot of pains!
a glorify mimic was expressed and she told to her husband that their only boy was save!
Then without thinking of anything, she and her husband drove to hospital as quick as tiger!
then they hugged it strongly within tears shedding on their cheeks!
Shane, Are you okey? How is it going?, mother asked
then Shane didn't answer the questioned, he tried to look his around to find the girl who has helped his life!
but he can't!
he tried to ask the police where was the girl, but they say there was no girl with me!
he was so sad and he pretended to back to the forest, however his condition was not allowed him to move a lot!he promised to himself that he will find the girl and have to!
*BACK TO SCENE 1
After giving an aid to the man, she felt so great and delighted, however one BIG hole was waiting for her!
then, finally she nerved herself to back home without taking anything, and she went home so lately!
in front of her hut, her mother and sister were waiting for her!
Shortly she was trapped and a cramped hole and was not feed anything,!
*she begged'' I am sorry mom, please give water,I am thristy''
She stammered on the hole that might be not heard by them!
Few days later, Shane , who was helped by the poor girl tried to look for her!
then in the shiny morning, Shane and his plane and other helper found a hut in mid of the forest, he was very happy and hoped that the girl was in there! and they landed the plane near the hut, and walk thru the way to grab the hut, then he knocked the door'' tuk tuk tuk,..
Excuse me? ...the mother opened the door and was totally shock and surprised?
and asked Shane within a pitch sound, ''who are you?'' asked mother!
Shane directly said, I am Shane who has helped by your daughter when I was loss in this forest!
then the sister went out the hut, and said ''It's me'' *the sister tried to lie Shane! and her mother did so!
Shane, firstly felt unsure that the girl he meant is she!
Who's your name?. asked Shane. ''I am Seeky!'' replied the sister
then, Shane asked Seeky and the mother to move to town, and he offered a better life there because he was saved!
then the mother leered to the sister and undoubtedly they agree to move and stay in a town!
then they packed themselves and start to leave the hut,!
few steps from home, Shane said something to Seeky,'' Thank you very much for saving my life''
O that's oc, the point you will give me and my mother better life as the feed back!''
Hearing that response, Shane felt unsure again, is she the girl or ??
then Shane pretended to take something that might leave near the hut! '' Sorry, please go first, I will be there in 10 minutes, I leave something near the hut when washing my hand!, said Shane
''Ok'' answered them!
the feeling of curious was stir up on his mind, and kept asking ,''was she the girl?''
after near the hut, he walked around the hut, and tried to hear anything,,,
Luckily, Shane find her, the girl who truly has saved his life, and he has knows what was happen why was she jailed in a cramp hole!
Shane was fire!he said that he won't let her mother and sister come with them!
Shane toted the girl because she could not stand because she has been starving for few days!
and he met the mother and Seeky, and told to them on firely!'' What have you done to this girl??
OmG, oo my daughter, we have been wating for you and looking for you so long!, grinned the mother!
*the mother and sister didn't realize that the girl has told everything to the Shane!
''You don't need to be awful!I have know everything!'' , expressed Shane!
Well, I have decided, both of you will not come with us! Shane instructed!
Then, the mother and sister were very ashamed!
and begging to Shane to be allowed to go with them!
and Shane took the girl's hand and engaged her to go with him!
'' Thank you Shane for your kindness and I am glad to know you!, but I won't go without my mother and sisters!'' said the girl!
Shane was surprised and delighted to see the girl's response!
What a beautiful hurt! keep loving even though you have been abused by your own family! expressed Shane!
'' no matter what, she is my mother and my sister'' I love them so much, and they are my life''!
said the girl!
*the mother and sister were very regret for everything they do towards the girl!

finally they took of together...
3 weeks later, Shane and the girl get married and have a happy lovely life!
_THE END_

TEACHER, FRIENDSHIP,STUDENTS!

TEACHER, FRIENDSHIP,STUDENTS!
Look Beside! That's the teachers of the year 2008/2009!Great right!!!
Today, it's been in 2012, it has been a long time not seeing them and having a crazy chat with them all,,,Miss you so bad buddy!!!:(
Well, I don't know how to start my fingers to dance in this blog as I am fully blocked with excitement to seeing this pic!hahahahah
I had spent my years in this institution wt my friends in this pic, some of us was only for 1 or 2 years of teaching there!

Here you go!
We were the teacher of one of national plus schools in PKU. We had different site of teaching and of course different background too. This differ made a sense for us. it tightened our partnership one to another! I am not sure whether I still recognize all of them. Somewhat, by uploading this pic in this blog I will keep remembering them as well.
On my consider, this school is popular of its English program! it offers a vary kinds of English subjects such : linguistics including grammar, vocabulary, listening, writing and scientific knowledge such as chemistry, biology, physics, maths and also economic! what a great program!!!right!
All the teachers above were responsible to educate the students in accordance wt their skills.
Well, I won't note about the teachers' behavior. I just wanna recognize and admit that they were ever existing in my life time!
Being a teacher is not as easy as other professions! Everyone could master his special field,however it doesn't guarantee that he or she is absolutely capable in doing this kind of profession! Passion and Enthusiasm are totally needed to implement the job. eventhough we don't learn about the psychology, we have to do assisting the students in overcome their unwelcome behavior!for the first time it's totally annoying!but then it'll be a happiness for the teacher what if the sense of ''love'' exists in their mind!
after years, the feeling of possession stayed in my mind, and I do admit that they had made my lifetime shiner and brighter, though somehow there were a part of them uncontrolled! 
Here is my former children...:)

that pic is totally a great time for me! it's like a friendship, there was no limitation between us at that time, though they called me 'miss' but the sense of joke was running smoothly! even while we took a pic, most of them tried to cheat me,hahahha...
They were the 8th grade!they were fun and enjoyable students to teach!We spent for a year to pass the grade to sustain the 9th grade. The girls and the boys are smart nice pupils! I acknowledged they are great!!and love them so much!
*but i used to hide my love to them, since I didn't expect them to be unreliable and lazy to compete among them!hahahahha, but somewhat, some of them pretended that I have loved them a lot! then I would say''NO" though I adore them from the bottom of my heart!:D
''Hi all guyss....You have added my line that could be proud of'' *say from my heart beat

and then this pic was a unique pose for me,,,
It seem no students no teacher!
We were a friend outside the school hours!
And they could implement that statement!
Proud of them so much!

Though there was a bit disappointment during the years, it's covered wt their laugh and kindness on me!

It's unforgettable moment, working in the middle of friendliness! 

I wish the best for you all...succeed in studying! grab your dream! don't allow your self to be discourage! But have a sharp keen to obtain your big ambision!

One day, When we see each other, hopefully we still recognize each another! though we are at the top of our succeed!

Miss you my former students!
God bless us as always!
:)


 

Out of Mind

Each of us does have a bunch of faith!
A faith enables me to accomplish our life line in His path. I don't know how far I have to walk in thru this path,I don't know what are the matters on coming days, I don't know whether the road is waving or even lots of hole! I just notify that I must stroll in as long as I live.
Somehow, to enlighten the days  isn't as easily as spoken. I have to see a lot of kinds of human who has its own character and behavior! Enhancing the life cycle seem no matter when it goes smoothly. but if the race seem to have a lots of gravels we'll try to escape from this at all.
When I am buried in the questions, I can't find the answer, then I will think nothing, and try to ignore this whole matters. It seems like a blanket covered a whole part of my body in icy room. it will works as well to warm the itching body. but when it's applied on hot day, it will be such a trash that make me in suck of red!
Something, I cant'  explore to is hardly to be saved! it deliberately hits my part of soul!
It needs to be frozen,then melted  !

 

Heng Hong..:D

Well, today  I am thinking of a lot of fun misery!
looking down on this desk there's a bunch of wire that connect this com to internet server!
glancing to my left, there is an empty seat that is subsidized for whoever visits this office esp the honor guest!
Hmm....Let me count??there are almost 5 people who have ever sit here!*eyecathing!
then, staring at the left corner, there is a man within quite stylish guy!but it's quite good to be friend with!
and the last guy, sitting in front of me is quite good man and smart and has a fab experience!
Yeah...that is the room of syala syalalala...hahahha
seeing the long big cupboard filled wt many kinds of file or documents make me want to vomit,since it's not organized neatly! and I don't know whose file are those!
anyway Whatever,,I got to adapt myself with this kind of space!at least for the next coming better room!
hahahhaha
*just little bit empty...
 

US...

My heart, Your heart and Her heart...
counting down the days...
few days later you will engage to her...
few weeks later you will propose her to be yours
then both of you will be engaged wt holy marriage, in which none can separate you both instead of death!
it's simply nice to hear, gladly to do
and now you have done your expectation without taking care of them,you won the games made by you, you fail them as they thought like a fool, you denied your promise,refused the facts that a misery has lied down on their heart!it's a happy for you!
Well, everyone knows that it isn't the time to blame who, but it's the time to reopen new slide of our mind and assist that you will be hers!
how much pain you have landed on us, won't be able to make us down on earth.As Lord says, we have to love each other so then we can be said that we adore Lord!
Being hurt won't be easy for them to forget all the things happen, as you don't try to setback the condition to be better, it will continue up to indefinite time!
shortly, I will pray the best for you and your coming fams, get mature of course, and hope you try to remain that you can't life without them, beg pardon to them and say it from the bottom of your heart that you are fully in regret to speak up all the hurt things that have annoyed them! so you could run your new life as well.
Good luck for ya and have a bless as always!

A Piece of white paper...

A piece of paper has been filled up wt variant thousands of writing...
it's almost torn...and the letters are almost invisible...and totally need a bunch of fertilizers to grow it well..
Mungkin itulah perumpamaan yang sesuai tuk hari ini...
sungguh luar biasa kabar yang datang dan pergi, feels like a shock therapy, to therapy the heart beat and the head!
I am sure, none expected to be me...cuz other are not as tough as me! I am chosen cuz I am worth to have this kinda of life experience, it's totally great !!!!like climbing on a crash mountain and strolling this feet onto sharp rock!what a misery!!!
a pure white paper has been filled up wt hundreds color which contains of thousands meaning...
When I paint it wt my fav color, and it's attractive, people who see will try to ignore it and sometimes, people wanna wrap it wt its own color, so it won't be as gorgeous as before!
and the pure Whitney paper has turned to colorful page...!

Demikianlah kondisi saat ini, Tuhan berikan kertas nan putih dan manusia yang mengisinya!
and the question is how do you fill it up?
what are the color used for?
how is the quality of the color used?
Since we are the owner of this paper, we know well on how to keep it up well till it could be reopen and review by next generation!
Today it's been filled up wt great challenged, emotion, temper, tear, heart break, and others!
though I don't know exactly how far I should leg my foot on this land, I wouldn't stop till I get the edge of this life, till God says 'stop'!
through this rock valley, He won't me to survive wt HIM!
having that faith, I will be led to top of His happiness!
Praise the Lord !!!
Thankie Gott..!

Just for FUN!

A year after..
time went by so fast, the flowers have grown up as well. it spreads its glow,,,
Yah, waktu ini begitu cepat berlalu...tidak terasa sudah setahun tanpa marker, red pen and eraser...hahahahah
Pengalaman demi pengalaman menhampiri kehidupanku... setahun berlalu telah aku jalani dengan suasan baru dan teman2 baru...walaupun it's out of my expectations...namun aku sangat bersyukur karena Tuhan masih memberikanku kesempatan untuk dihampiri oleh pengalaman yang laur biasa ini.
Yeah...dahulu diriku yang disebut sebagai pembimbing bagi anak2 bangsa sekarang sudah tidak lagi...dahulu diriku dilayani oleh anak2 sekarang berkarya dengan bapak2 dan ibu2..hahhahah*bukan yang negaif loh... yang nota bene karakternya jauh lebih keras dibandingkan batu...hahhaha :D
mengontrol emosi dan ego sudah sering daku hadapi dimasa lalu, namun sekarang sepertinya memang harus belajar lebih lagi tuk memahami berbagi kerasnya karakter manusia yang nota bene dewasa plus pemikiran dewasa yang sulit untuk mendengarkan....:D
Sungguh luar biasa tempat yang aku hadapi saat ini, dengan berada disini, daku semakin kekeh untuk membenah diri baik secara karakter dan ego yang terkadang merugikan orang lain meskipun keseringan dirugikan orang lain,hahahha
Ketika orang lain mengatakan menghadapi anak2 siswa itu sulit. namun tidak bagiku dibanding dengan menghadapi orang yang dewasa yang dibarengi dengan titel dan jabatan...so pasti ego setinggi menara effiel...hahahhah
Mengenal mereka semua membuat aku semakin banyak belajar secara emosional dan lebih memupuk diri agar tetap subur dan berkembang...yah walaupun terkadang layyu meskipun sdah diberi pupuk..ahhahaha
Yah,, itu lah yang harus aku jalani setahun kedepan...namun aku percaya, ditempatkan disuatu tempat tidak lah tanpa sepengetahuan Tuhan,,,,apabila aku sdh cukup matang dengan hal begini aku percaya Tuhan akan kasih yang jauh lebih menantang...namun sebagai manusia biasa daku pasti ada merasa kecewa terhadap segelintir orang, namun aku percaya itu akan membuat aku semakin lebih peka terhadap orang lain...
so guys...bagaimanapun kondisi pekerjaanmu skrg, coba yuk tuk lihat sisi positifnya...karena itu akan membuat kita jauh lebih baik dan berkualitas, namun jika sdah tidak sanggup, look for others yah...hahahhahah
sedikit goresan my mind...heheheh

It's Ceaseless!

It is ceaseless...~!
Once we were born in this damn earth, we have been faced with variant matters of life.
they keep waiting for us to grow well and mature as well.yeah, luckily we didn't know it when we were still baby, could u imagine if we knew it earlier, we might be being a baby forever, cuz we didn't expect for those!
Heheheheh...
that's the power of God's love, He knows when he has to give us the tests, let's say these life problems are the tests!
it's such a pupil who attends a school, let's say in primary, started from know nothing to know everything!
before having a test at school, there have been a lot of reviews held.and even in middle of reviews there has been displayed lots of samples to ease the process of understanding, and is not rare for those tutor create the pupils to be sample, as the purpose is to make them easily comprehend the reviews and they are capable to create the same case then find out the solution to overcome those test.

That sample is portrait to display our mind on how is the process to gain better achievement by overcoming those variant tests!
It's not as simply as theory than done! It's totally hardly to be implied, however, we can if we think we can!
God knows well, when he has to put us on a particular case, He belongs our life wholly, so there won't be any reason for us to say""NO/ WHY ME''
Now, the question is, where are we when He is explaining the reviews?Are we listening what He says and explains, Do we imply what he asks for, do we achieve the right explanation? or  do we against those all??
Let's answer it by our self, no need to explore it....
If the sample above, a pupil who gives his ears and attention and wanna practice what the teacher said, 98 percent can be assumed that he gonna surpass the tests or even could gain higher than expectation!
in opposite to those who do not give their attention could hardly say that they will pass the tests as well.
that's totally fair for them! in other words, there gonna be price for something!

So the life does! we have been provided lots of sample and variant reviews have extended right away, but we are not seriously to listen and to do! therefore, most of us get depressed and suspense in overcoming the matters of life!

Be a better listener and doer!
So we can accomplish the assignments and tests given by Him and of course gain the standards grade or even become surplus...

Dank Gott!
Helmi J

He Witnesses everything..:)

Mind on Fire..

as of 14 June 2012 at 11 am, there was a call from someone,

her voice seemed accustomed to my ear, she said, hi,'where are u?' then I said I am in office, why? Don't u know about this?,,then I replied,what was that?

then she canceled the plan to told me the news, it made me in suspense! what was going on?what happened?this remained in my mind till the call is off.

few hours later, there was a dial from a lit boy, he said''please pray for me''. this led me confused and made me questioned. what's wrong?, I asked him to calm down his mind and soul,and let me know what the issue is. then he kept talking emotionally then almost crying..then I said, please control your emotion, don't let your fire bring you broke, then finally he heard me, then he started talking the issue happened.

as I let my ear on it, I kept in silence, my heart felt stop beating, my breath felt stop breathing...what???????

he kept saying''it was not I'' I pledged I didn't do that, It's bullshit for me being rude to my own niece, I love her like I love u,how could I be blamed?I was so depressed hearing what he said...

unconsciously, my tears are shedding on my cheeks, my eyes turn to red, I feel like on sudden boom fire,what happened there??????

he asked me to trust him that it was not he...I couldn't word anything, I keep in silence and silence.

I just talk to HIM, I exclaim all the thing I heard, I let Him know what happened, cuz I am speechless...I got stumbled. cuz I don't know exactly what the case is, and who gonna be accused? and what must be done?I was totally blank!

then , I bow my head, cross my hand, humble my mind soul, then I call Him,

Dear Father, Your righteousness will occur in exact time, I do believe, U see everyone, none of us in this earth could hide behind U, everything U witness not even simplest thing, on my weakness, we will gain the fact, we do believe in U Jesus, 

I told Him, we are in U, show us the right way to overcome this.

my tears stop shedding on my cheeks, I have a faith the truth will be displayed, I beg to Holly Spirit to take control on us all, let It dominate our mind and soul, let Him work on us...

I beg to the Holly Lord, within my faith , He will come in the middle of us, to unite us, to gather us, through this way. .

In the name of Holly Father, I would say, Thank you for relying this case on my small family, We are worth to receive it and it would our challenge in realizing that how great U have involved in us, that out of our consciousness we forget to thank every single things in our life.

We will be gladly achieving everything on YOUR willing only.

Thank you Jesus, We do love you no matter what...Amen

Some time it hurts instead...
Yeah....
Hidup ini sangat indah ketika berada di zona yang menguntungkan...
Namun ketika kita berada di zona yang merugikan, we will say...What the hell!!!!
kamu, dia, mereka, dan aku so pasti pernah mengalami keaadaan ini, right???
Namun jika ada yang tak mengalami salah satunya, itu sangat luar biasa..it is like a dead body! what a misery!
Hidup ini sangat membutuhkan berbagai perspective agar semua balance,kebayang gak guys?? jika setiap orang hanya memilik satu perspective dalam menyikapi hidup, wauuu.....this world can be frozen!! no wave!
Di sisi lain yang bisa dikatakan ironi adalah, semua manusia tau, dan percaya roda kehidupan ini berputar,
simple sample nie, kendaraan roda dua atau roda empat atau jika ada roda 100 sekalipun,heheheh
 mereka dapat berjalan itu karena roda tersebut berputar, sehingga kita dapat menggunakannya tuk mencapai suatu tujuan yang kita mau, mau ke harvard, Netherlands and bla bla bla....dan kita juga tau pasti roda itu berputar bukan karena roda itu sendiri ya khan????*ala teh syahrini yah.....:P
ada mesin yang bekerja tuk memutar roda tersebut, dan dibalik mesin ada manusia yang mengontrol mesin tersebut...jadi berkaitan dengan satu sama lain, Jika manusia yang mengendarai kendaraan tersebut tidak tau persis bagaimana menggunakannya maka akan terjadi hal2 yang tidak diinginkan, bisa saja masuk parit, atau bahkan bisa merenggut nyawa...iya  khannn?:)
Dan satu hal lagi, ketika sedang mengendarai tersebut, kita berusaha menghindari jalan yang rusak, berlubang dlsb yang dapat menghambat kita,namun ada diseketika jalan itu memang rusak dan mau tidak mau harus dilalui,,dan disaat itu apa yang kita lakukan????setiap pengemudi punya cara tersendiri, mgkn menjadi penuh dengan kehati2an agar jangan sampe jatuh.
Well,,,It's just simple sample yah...
Demikian lah 2 kondisi diatas...Zona yang asyik and damai atau menguntungkan dan zona yang merugikan!
seperti cth roda tersebut dia berputar agar bisa berjalan menuju tujuan, demikian kita manusia, kita harus berputar dan mengikuti roda kehidupan tuk mencapai tujuan yang kita inginkan, contoh nie babe!
Kamu ingin mendapatkan jabatan yang kamu pikir sdh layak kamu pegang dan kamulah yang pantas tuk memegang posisi itu, namun tidak semudah itu guysss....sebelum mencapai top position yang kita idamkan, kita harus mengikuti roda kehidupan, Jika saat ini kamu merasa diasingkan , didisfungsikan bahkan diabaikan kamu memang berada di zona yang tidak menguntungkan, namun pandanglah perspective yang baru, roda itu berputar, tidak selamanya kita berada dizona yang sama,! Guys, kita tahu, secara teori itu emank mudah,namun implementasinya butuh banyak pengorbanan, kita harus mengorbankan ego dan gengsi yang tinggi, hati yang kecewa dlsb dehhhhhh...SO WHAT SHOULD WE DO?
Here you are babe!
MENIKMATI SETIAP PROSES YANG ADA, yup, seperti makan Pecel lele,hmmm..jadi laper yahh..heheeh
Ketika kita berusaha menikmati zona yang tidak menguntungkan itu, maka kita akan lebih mantaff lagi menikmati zona nyaman itu! jika pun gagal at least but not the last, kita tahu sejauh apa kita bisa bersyukur ditengah zona ersebut! dan ketika kita mengetahui orang lain merasakan zona ketidak nyamanan itu, kita akan lebih memiliki empathy..kita akan berusaha tuk membuat keadaan dia lbh baik,KARNA APA? Cuz We have experienced it, and we know How hurt is being ignored being uncounted! so we will be happily help others...
Namun jika kamu mengeluh dan tetap bawellll heheheh kayak ikan bawal!! heheheh, let's see.. kita tidak akan pernah merasakan bagaimana zona yang nyaman itu...karena kita akan sulit membedakan mana sie zona yang nyaman dan tidak nyaman bagi diri kita pribadi!
So' ENJOY EVERY SINGLE PROCESS IN YOUR LIFE'' cuz LIFE IS NEVER FLAT ,IT IS LIKE A WHEEL sometimes IT'S UP and DOWN!
Other case, is Zona kenyamanan; yeah everybody wanna thisssssssssss,,yup??
Jangan terlena dulu guys...............ingat kembali LIFE IS NEVER FLAT!
Nikmati zona nyaman itu dgn sukacita dan persiapkan tuk menghadapi zona tidak nyaman tersebut,,! SO mungkin ada yang bertanya gmn biar ditengah2 zona itu saja....??
That's the easiest question to be answered babe!
only one word"" SHARE"
yup, sebagaimana kita tahu , apa yang kita tanam maka itu lah yang akan tumbuh, so jika kita tanam apel so pasti apel dunk yang tumbuh gak mungkin jeruk:D hehehehe ya khannnnnnnnnnnn:)
saat dizona nyaman jgn lupa tuk berbagi, dalam hal ni bukan hanya materi guyssssss,, banyak hal*tapi tidak berbagi suami yah...heheheh berbagi dalam arti membantu meringankan beban orang lain, baik yang down secaara mental dlsb...dengan demikian, kita sdh menamkan bekal tuk kita, jadi ketika kita mengalami zona yang tdk nyaman, percayalah akan ada HEALER atau HELPER yang akan datang dengan tulus hati meringankan kita...dan itu bisa saja melalui orang2 yang tidak kita duga sebelumnya...
Namun ingat satu hal bukan berarti kita menuntut belas kasih dari orang yang kita tolong sebelumnya, namun mintalah kepada Tuhanmu agar Dia memakai siapapun tuk sebagai teman berbagimu...
So itulah yang disebut KESEIMBANGAN dalam hidup...
SO, Jangan kecewa lagi yah jika berada dizona yang merugikan tersebut,,,,JUST LOVE IT...
and prepare ur self to enjoy The safety zone!

God bless every readers:)
Helmi J

A hush of Plane..
At early dawn, everyone woke up happily, each set every plan as well,
time table was settled as tight as belt driving, yeah They were nice and great people.
they deserved that they could experience  a worthwhile thing in which could be shared for media, so everyone notified and acknowledged that it's worth to use or have. they didn't take a worry for those, they knew it's their goal,and enjoyed it very much.
while departing they didn't feel any chaos will be. they knew, they will be home as if the trip finished.
their smile was recorded, their says were listened, their mind was keeping the memory that they wanted to share for us, and it will be their fantastic trip ever.
minutes went by, a sound of bird woken up all the people inside the bush. every one prayed and shouted "God Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'' everyone remained their home, fams, friends, boy friends, girl friend, children, wife, husband, auntie...everyone they loved. they saw their fams were waiting for them home. till they couldn't taste their drooled sweat, holding each other, the sense of the bush turned to insipid, musty, rancid!
They wanted to rush but didn't know where would they stepped up,
They wanted to jump out, but didn't know where to jump..They only saw green trees, they looked a high mountain...They were speechless...They were saying, They were shouting, they were roaring as loud as lion's
They were..........:( *no body heard....!
minutes, seconds, ............CRUSHHHHHHHHHH,BANGGGGGGGGGG<CLINKKKKKK,DEAFENNNNNNand  BLAsssttttttttttttt!
everyone lied everywhere, their tight holds was lost...dazingggg...Hazeeee....
What's left?Nothing remains....everything's gone.....Fade away out of the cloud....
What is left? Death Toll, Debris....
Where is the lough, smile, word, NO WHERE....!
some hanged up on the trees, some were burn, some were ,some were, some were...........
NO CRY at disaster area, only a sound of air...sound of leaves, sound of little animals...
sound of wild flowers, they were crying in seeing their fams were destroyed, none remained a whole, they were apart, They ............:(
None cld take over their position...!None urged to be them...None replaced them....
Now, crying is everywhere,,,Seeing everything was apart away, tear apart....no more hope to say they were safe...they were now in heaven...they were there....they were also tearing there seeing their part of body were spreading around or even lost....
few days being investigated and identified, they were found, they were smile at their misery,
Don't how to word it anymore...Now it left for memory of SF....
They were on our memory...Rest in Peace all lovers...God serves the best for you all...
God will empower the rest of family...
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Note'' Happiness can turn to Sadness or even great misery in a MINUTE''
We are people just be ready for every single possibility, be surrender to our Almighty Holly God...
since even at our last minute breath, none of our beloved could see us and hold us to say good bye!

God bless them all...:)
Helmi J

CERITAKU!
Hidup ditengah hiruk pikuk yang luarbiasa bukanlah hal yang mudah, banyak hal yang harus kita sesuaikan, dan mau tidak mau style of life pun harus ikut dirubah. Suatu ketika menaiki bus mini menuju ke arah kantor, kami terhenti dipersimpangan, dan seketika itu aku tertegun melihat TRAFFIC LAMP, yeah bagaimana tidak dikota yang sebesar ini dan se crowded ini, manusia harus mematuhi peraturan si benda mati itu!
Lalu aku berpikir sejenak, MANUSIA yang nota bene memilik akal pikiran  yang luar biasa yang mampu membedakan mana yang baik dan buruk , mau tunduk terhadap si benda itu! padahal itu hanya benda mati yang di operasikan oleh manusia!Hebatyah manusia ini...hehehhe...(tp kalau kata Tuhan sendri sering dilanggar); hal yang bisa aku maknai adalah, Benda mati itu dipakai Tuhan untuk membuat keadaan jalan lintas baik dan teratur, yah meskipun masih ada segelintir orang yang main nyosor aja,,hehehheheh
Disisi lain, saya berpikir, mengapa begitu lampu itu merah semua pada berhenti, pertama yang saya tangkap adalah menghindari kecelakaan, karna arah yang berlawanan pasti akan meluncur seketika lampu itu berubah menjadi hijau. apabila kamu nekat maju, so welcome to hospital or say goodbye to the world; kedua, menghindari tangkapan dari pak Polisi, yah apabila ketahuan maka akan ditangkap and nego nego dibelakang, duit dehhh yang bekerja...ehhehhehhe, dalam hati saya bertanya, dengan benda mati itu saja manusia taat, kenpa dengn Tuhanya yang telah memberikan kehidupan msh ttp melanggar yah, apakah harus dibuat sanksi dulu seperti lalu lintas?heheheheh(jawab sendiri yukkkk)
 Namun dibalik alasan umum tersebut ada hal yang pantas untuk kita ilhami dan kita bisa jadikan itu sebagai alasan tuk tetap bersyukur!
Here you are babe!
1. Lampu merah itu adalah benda mati, yeah kan*ala syahrini yah..hehehhe
Benda mati yang dioperasikan oleh mesin dan handmade itu ada karena situasi jalan itu memang harus membutuhkannnya, cth, katakan saja jalan itu ada 4 simpang atau 3, kebayang gak kalau tidak ada lampu lalu lintas, rame dunk hospital,,heheheh..mau tidak mau pemerintah harus hire banyak perawat dunk...dan semua orang akan ambil jurusan bidan atau perawat dunk..hehehhe yeah khannnnn*ala syarini lagi yah....
Tuhan letakkan lampu lalu lintas ditengah banyak pesimpangan, demikian juga kehidupan kita, Tuhan membuat batas dan limit kapan itu  merah, hijau kuning dalam kehidupan kita(oia masing2 warna sdh tau kan maknanya)
Ketika merah pengendara berhenti dan menunggu dengan sabar,sembari menghidupkan mesin kendaraan demikian juga kita, jika kita menyadari Tuhan sedang kasih lampu merah, kita akan duduk diam dan menunggu disertai usaha, ketika itu kuning pengendara bersiap siap untuk meluncur, dia tdak harus hidupkan mesin lagi, krn dia ttp menghidupkan kendaraannya saat merah,demikian juga kita, kita siap2 menerima hasil karna saat merah kita ttp berusaha, dan akhrnya saat HIJAU, pengendara meluncur secepatnya, demikian juga kehidupan kita, berlanjut dengan kebahagian!tapi tunggu dulu...bukan lantas kita langsung bahagia selamanya, kita akan masih menghadapi hal yang sama kedepannya, bener gak???
2. Tuhan membuat lampu merah, kuning dan hijau itu agar semua mendapat giliran, demikian dalam hidup kita ni guys...!
Jika persimpangan itu lampu merah terus, kapan lajunya si pengendara, iya khannnnnnnn, demikian hidup kita, Tuhan tidak selalu ksih lampu merah,,,terkadang ia memberi lampu kuning, agar yang lain tau untuk berhenti karna kita akan maju, terkadang Tuhan kasih kita Hijau agar yang lain mendapat kesempatan tuk berhenti dan ketika kita di beri Merah, agar yang lain bisa maju, bener khannnnnnn
SO HIDUP INI ADA MASANYA, dengan kata lain*RODA ITU AKAN TETAP BERPUTAR*
ada saatnya sedih, menderita, dan suka, JAdi ketika kita bahagia, itu artinya kita harus bersiapsedia tuk bersedih, sebaliknya ketika kita bersedih, kita haris siap tuk bahagia, seperti kutipan dari Bapak Pendetaku bilang'' Kesuksessan adalah warning untuk kegagalan vise versa Kegagalan adalah warning untuk Kesuksessan'' so Nikmari setiap ritme yang ada, sama halnya seperti lampu merah tadi!
Setiap masa adalah Anugerah dari Tuhanmu, Tuhanku dan Tuhan kita...

Helmi J

REPENTANCE!
Waktu telah bergulir, dan seiring berjalannya waktu semua jg berlalu begitu saja
banyak hal yang telah dilewati, sakit,senang semua telah dilalui, dan saat kamu jatuh pada hal kesalahan yang sama, apa yang akan kamu lakukan?
Well, banyak hal yang bisa dilakukan, mau baik dan buruk itu tergantung kita.
Yeah, talking about solution, begitu banyak kata2 bijak yang ditawarkan, dan semua kelihatan sangat menjanjikan, namun selaku manusia biasa, dan selama kita masih hidup dibumi ini, tidaklah semudah itu mengatasinya. yup!
Mungkin all the reader will do agree, dan sdah familiar dengan kata REPENTANCE! mungkin kata2 ini sdh biasa, dan ini muncul ketika kita tdk mendapatkan tujuan yang kita inginkan! yeah PENYESALAN!
jika pepatah mengatakan'' apa daya nasi telah menjadi bubur dan tak akan bisa kembali menjadi nasi''namun saya ingin menambahkan beberapa kata dan ini sering diabaikan, yup jika ingin mendapatkan nasi kembali yeah, kita harus memasaknya lagi dengan penuh kehati2an agar nasi itu bener matang sesuai dengan keinginan kita, so pasti kita akan menyesuaikan porsi airnya dlsb agar beras tersebut bisa matang dengan menghasilkan nasi yang gurih dan enak untuk dilahap. setuju gak guys???
Well, itu hanya sebagai gambaran kasus yang simple untuk menghadapi penyesalan. Seandainya kamu takut untuk memasak beras yang ada dan kamu takut kelak akan menjadi bubur, maka JANGAN harap kamu bisa menikmati bagaimana nasi yang enak dan gurih!
Begitulah kehidupan ini guys! Let's cek it dot apa sie makna dari sample peribahasa diatas!
Here you are babe!;
Menyesali apa yang telah terjadi memang sangat manusiawi, dan apabila kita tdk pernah merasakan penyesalan I think Dia manusia super duper jutex in the earth!, semua orang sama, pernah mengalami penyesalan, namun ada perbedaan yaitu''CARA/MANNER'' seseorang menghadapi dan menyikapi penyesalan tersebut!
ada berbagai efek dari kata ini, bahkan ada yang sampai trauma?betulll?
dan kabar baiknya adalah dengan penyesalan beberapa orang akan bangkit dari rasa itu dan mencapai hasil yang jauh lebih dari apa yang diharapkan...mungkin disekeliling kita ada yang seperti itu, bangkit dari rasa penyesalan yang hanya akan bener meruggikan diri kita sendiri
sebagai contoh kasus yah guys, '' ketika seseorang memiliki kisah asmara yang begitu menyayat hati dimasa lalu'' secara manusiawi tak seorangpun dari kita ingin mengalaminya. namun hidup telah dilalui dan kisah itu telah terjadi, apakah kamu akan ttp dikisah itu atau kamu bangkit dari kisah itu dan memulai dari nol kembali atau kamu trauma>
Sungguh sakit memang,ketika kita disakiti dan luka itu membekas dihati dan tak jarang kita merasa sangat sulit tuk bangkit kembali, bahkan banyak diantara kita semakin memperburuk keadaan, itu tidak bisa disalahkan, karna tidak ada hakim untuk itu, hamkimya adalah TUHAN. namun sebagai orang yang beriman, dan berpendidikan kita harus bijak menyikapinya, ketika itu terjadi dalam kehidupan kita, apakah kita akan lari dari itu, dan tak ingin mengulanginya lagi dikarenakan trauma, INGAT, ketika kamu gak ingin memulainya dan memperbaikinya dengan metode yang lebih bijak dari yang lalu, itu sama saja seperti perumpamaan diatas"JANGAN HARAP kamu bisa mendapatkan kisah asmara yang jauh lebih indah dan bahagia, sama seperti perumpamaan itu bukan??
SO guys, point nya adalah, ketika kita dalam kondisi penyesalan, kita tidak dapat memutar waktu agar kejadian itu tidak ada , namun kita bisa ambil hikmah dari rasa kecewa itu, dan menganalisa setiap metode yang tdk layak dipakai kembali ketika kita berniat memulai yang baru.
Finally, Jika kita ingin mendapatkan yang terbaik, jauhkan diri dari larutan PENYESALAN, kita harus berani mencoba memulai daari NOL,meskipun itu tidak mudah, tapi yakinlah, Berserah diri kepada Tuhanmu dan andalkan DIA agar kita mampu.
Dan ini bukan hanya berlaku dalam kisah asmara , ini untuk semua aspek kehidupan!
God bless us all...

Helmi J

Tetap Teguh dalam hal apapun!
Hi guys, this time I wanna share my shorty text, are you ready !
well, is there anyone wanna be ignored? yeah no right !
Ketika kamu dalam keadaan yang sangat tidak tidak menyenangkan, what will you do guys?
Are you going to bark?hahhaha
Or keep nagging to those annoying?
oh come on Babe! we are worth!!! Manusia boleh menganggap kita rendah, but ONE things MUST BE REMAIN, God says NO for that kind of behavior! There are some clues how to overcome this condition, get on it babe!
1. Be thankful  if you were in that situation; WHY? tidak semua orang bisa merasakan apa yang kamu rasakan, ketika kita menghadapi rasa itu, like nor dislike,we shall deserve it or even conquer it.Dan rasa itu membuat kita tidak nyaman namun rasa itu juga memampukan kita untuk berusaha nyaman didalam ketidaknyamanan!
haioooo pusing yeaaaaa?think it deeply babe!
The point is, when u ever feel how hurt is being ignored, I am sure u won't do as same to others!
so, you will appreciate people much!
2 continue,,,hehehe

Sepenggal cerita...

hellow babe!!

look this out! there is a short story that may be could inspire you what should be done when u were there! check this out babe!

Well, let's start from happiness!

Self-esteem! yeah...everyone knows well abt this!yap, hope I am right!

When you think that you are not worth of it, but in fact u could grab it, how do you feel?

absolutely EXCITED yup!!!

Seorang wanita biasa yang dibesarkan oleh seorang nenek, yang kesehariannya adalah sebagai petani! wauuuu....*is it remaining u babe! yeah untuk anak kota sie tdk akan ngefek*piss maybe only for some!

yeah, sang wanita kecil itu bertumbuh dan berkembang secara normal dikediaman sang nenek!

ketika itu ia masih begitu belia, diusia yang seharusnya ia dibina oleh orangtua namun nyatanya dia harus dibina oleh sang nenek!

Disuatu pedesaan yang bisa dikatakan cukup maju, cuz there so many wealthy men there, tapi tidak termasuk sang gadis cilik, ocey guys untuk mempermudah to notify the girl, let's call her '' Syella''!

Don't forget her name is Syela!

Selayaknya sama dengan anak2 yang lain, ia juga menduduki sekolah dasar sampai tinggat yang lebih tinggi!

do you know guys! she had to work hard! almost everyday! yeah  bagaimana tidak, diusia yang seharusnya dia menikmati bermain dgn anak2 seusia dia, dia harus bekerja selayaknya orang dewasa! Cookind, Sweeping, and bla bla bla....* kalo anak jaman sekarang usia segitu malah main BBM..hahahhaha...it's totally contrast babe!

Dipagi buta ia harus sudah bangun tuk membantu sang nenek, memasak, mencuci pokonya do all the chores! what abt you babe! are u? yeah maybe some!

bnegitulah kegiatan yang ia lakukan, dipagi hari ia harus membantu sang nenek lalu pergi kesekolah, dan sepulangnya dari sekolah ia harus ke sawah untuk membantu sang nenek! kegiatan ini ia laukan hingga ia menyelesaikan junior high schoolnya!

alhasil Syila yang tadinya gadis cilik yang berkulit kuning langsat turn to black eye peace!!hahahah

Be continue.....:)