US...

My heart, Your heart and Her heart...
counting down the days...
few days later you will engage to her...
few weeks later you will propose her to be yours
then both of you will be engaged wt holy marriage, in which none can separate you both instead of death!
it's simply nice to hear, gladly to do
and now you have done your expectation without taking care of them,you won the games made by you, you fail them as they thought like a fool, you denied your promise,refused the facts that a misery has lied down on their heart!it's a happy for you!
Well, everyone knows that it isn't the time to blame who, but it's the time to reopen new slide of our mind and assist that you will be hers!
how much pain you have landed on us, won't be able to make us down on earth.As Lord says, we have to love each other so then we can be said that we adore Lord!
Being hurt won't be easy for them to forget all the things happen, as you don't try to setback the condition to be better, it will continue up to indefinite time!
shortly, I will pray the best for you and your coming fams, get mature of course, and hope you try to remain that you can't life without them, beg pardon to them and say it from the bottom of your heart that you are fully in regret to speak up all the hurt things that have annoyed them! so you could run your new life as well.
Good luck for ya and have a bless as always!

A Piece of white paper...

A piece of paper has been filled up wt variant thousands of writing...
it's almost torn...and the letters are almost invisible...and totally need a bunch of fertilizers to grow it well..
Mungkin itulah perumpamaan yang sesuai tuk hari ini...
sungguh luar biasa kabar yang datang dan pergi, feels like a shock therapy, to therapy the heart beat and the head!
I am sure, none expected to be me...cuz other are not as tough as me! I am chosen cuz I am worth to have this kinda of life experience, it's totally great !!!!like climbing on a crash mountain and strolling this feet onto sharp rock!what a misery!!!
a pure white paper has been filled up wt hundreds color which contains of thousands meaning...
When I paint it wt my fav color, and it's attractive, people who see will try to ignore it and sometimes, people wanna wrap it wt its own color, so it won't be as gorgeous as before!
and the pure Whitney paper has turned to colorful page...!

Demikianlah kondisi saat ini, Tuhan berikan kertas nan putih dan manusia yang mengisinya!
and the question is how do you fill it up?
what are the color used for?
how is the quality of the color used?
Since we are the owner of this paper, we know well on how to keep it up well till it could be reopen and review by next generation!
Today it's been filled up wt great challenged, emotion, temper, tear, heart break, and others!
though I don't know exactly how far I should leg my foot on this land, I wouldn't stop till I get the edge of this life, till God says 'stop'!
through this rock valley, He won't me to survive wt HIM!
having that faith, I will be led to top of His happiness!
Praise the Lord !!!
Thankie Gott..!

Just for FUN!

A year after..
time went by so fast, the flowers have grown up as well. it spreads its glow,,,
Yah, waktu ini begitu cepat berlalu...tidak terasa sudah setahun tanpa marker, red pen and eraser...hahahahah
Pengalaman demi pengalaman menhampiri kehidupanku... setahun berlalu telah aku jalani dengan suasan baru dan teman2 baru...walaupun it's out of my expectations...namun aku sangat bersyukur karena Tuhan masih memberikanku kesempatan untuk dihampiri oleh pengalaman yang laur biasa ini.
Yeah...dahulu diriku yang disebut sebagai pembimbing bagi anak2 bangsa sekarang sudah tidak lagi...dahulu diriku dilayani oleh anak2 sekarang berkarya dengan bapak2 dan ibu2..hahhahah*bukan yang negaif loh... yang nota bene karakternya jauh lebih keras dibandingkan batu...hahhaha :D
mengontrol emosi dan ego sudah sering daku hadapi dimasa lalu, namun sekarang sepertinya memang harus belajar lebih lagi tuk memahami berbagi kerasnya karakter manusia yang nota bene dewasa plus pemikiran dewasa yang sulit untuk mendengarkan....:D
Sungguh luar biasa tempat yang aku hadapi saat ini, dengan berada disini, daku semakin kekeh untuk membenah diri baik secara karakter dan ego yang terkadang merugikan orang lain meskipun keseringan dirugikan orang lain,hahahha
Ketika orang lain mengatakan menghadapi anak2 siswa itu sulit. namun tidak bagiku dibanding dengan menghadapi orang yang dewasa yang dibarengi dengan titel dan jabatan...so pasti ego setinggi menara effiel...hahahhah
Mengenal mereka semua membuat aku semakin banyak belajar secara emosional dan lebih memupuk diri agar tetap subur dan berkembang...yah walaupun terkadang layyu meskipun sdah diberi pupuk..ahhahaha
Yah,, itu lah yang harus aku jalani setahun kedepan...namun aku percaya, ditempatkan disuatu tempat tidak lah tanpa sepengetahuan Tuhan,,,,apabila aku sdh cukup matang dengan hal begini aku percaya Tuhan akan kasih yang jauh lebih menantang...namun sebagai manusia biasa daku pasti ada merasa kecewa terhadap segelintir orang, namun aku percaya itu akan membuat aku semakin lebih peka terhadap orang lain...
so guys...bagaimanapun kondisi pekerjaanmu skrg, coba yuk tuk lihat sisi positifnya...karena itu akan membuat kita jauh lebih baik dan berkualitas, namun jika sdah tidak sanggup, look for others yah...hahahhahah
sedikit goresan my mind...heheheh